The system designed to protect me; Destroyed me

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The BrOkEn system:

America's child welfare:

Child ProtectiveServices (CPS)

“The system created to protect me, destroyed me & my family” -Sam🌸

When DCF entered my life I was 38yrs old. I had been a mother for 16 years, since I was 22yrs old.

I had been a very good mother. Growing up I had involved protective parents & I knew how to do the same. Unlike my parents I offered my children unconditional love & I told them “I love you” ~all throughout each & everyday. 🩷

My parenting philosophy, parenting skills plus 16yrs of experience, my protective measures, my priority to teach my children right from wrong, the daily routines I carefully created & my positive behaviors didn't matter to CPS....

     What did matter to them was giving custody of my precious children to my abusive ex who was set out to destroy me.. because I hurt him & he knew the only way to hurt me back was to take my children from me.

    He made enough calls to the Florida abuse hotline to where eventually that is exactly what happened💔

After 15 false allegation calls to the hotline in a 6month period his evil plan finally worked. CPS was invading my space & stealing my children. I died that day my children were ripped from my arms & from my life-- by CPS, in my state known as DCF ( Department of Children and Families)

DCF didn't care I had a college degree, came from a good family, had healthy beautiful happy children & they didn't care I had done the right thing, the most scary thing I have ever done in my life– leaving my violent abusive lengthy crimminal record narcissist ex… All CPS cared about was that I was Vulnerable, due to a housing need from being financially dependent on my ex because having four children all ages 6 and under- it made sense for me to be a stay-at-home mom.

I've always been employed that wasn't the problem. I've always had money my children never went without anything that wasn't the problem. The allegations that even opened the case (my son had rotten teeth) were immediately proved unfounded as soon as the investigator laid her eyes on my 3yr old son, so my children weren't abused or neglected, that wasn't the problem. 

So WHAT WAS THE PROBLEM??… the entire system known as child protective services IS THE PROBLEM. A system that purposefully sets parents up for failure b)c that's how the system was designed, coded & when the system is done.. it spits families back out.. and those families are 1) completely destroyed or 2) together but broken, traumatized beyond repair which disgustingly seems to be the state (the system's) goal…

In my story, the part that led to removal… The investigator said for me to call her if my living arrangements changed & so I did, when an opening emerged at a family centered shelter in my hometown, I took it– to follow through with my plan of.. daycare assistance, employment & assistance with housing. As a survivor of domestic violence I just needed help getting on my feet so my children & I could have a place to call home🏡. It didn't even have to be nice, I was fully prepared to put the work into it and the love into our new home ~our NEW BEGINNING~ whatever that may have looked like.

Which I'll never know b)c with a psycho ex and a broken child welfare system my children and I didn't stand a chance.

 DCF FFN didn't offer me assistance, they didn't try to keep my family together and they not only traumatized my kids for life by ripping them from the only parent who had raised them… they placed my children with my abusive ex & his sick in the head new girlfriend (I used to refer to them as the spawns of satan). I believe CPS placed my children with them b)c they knew my kids would be back in the system and forced into foster care oneday-- which is exactly what happened. 

Two years later the same month I completed my case plan, my ex committed a series of serious felonies & then went on the Run- abandoning our kids.. placing them in fostercare💔

When dcf stole my kids from my care November 8th 2018 I never saw them under normal circumstances again😭 & it broke me- my life became a living nightmare, my Court hearings became a circus show & my abusive X did a very good job at destroying my life~ he didn't stop with taking my children… he went on to legally abuse me by a system whose entire core purpose was supposed to be meant to protect me and my children-- & the legal abuse... the system not only knew about it, they helped him😡

🚫📣the system is broken and DCF is corrupt. I didn't get my 5 children back. Our goodbye visit was Aug 2022. I didn't want to go, that shit was unbearable. But I knew I was going to go, a chance to see my children even if it was to say goodbye😭. And mainly because my children deserved the closure no matter how painful the weeks leading to it were, the goodbye visit itself & several months afterwards, even though how difficult they were on me... & how much suffering is embedded in the entire process just described.

Gut wrenching pain during an event I had to prepare for all alone,  on my own. CPS offers parents zero support during the entire nightmare– from beginning with removal (shock, despair, rage, confusion, worry) to termination of parental rights (dark heavy grieving) to our goodbye visit (suffering)<-I received zero guidance & support for this last visit but I was determined to attend & be prepared with the right words, appropriate heartfelt letter, sentimental items & new gifts. And determined to pull all this off gracefully as well b)c that'swhat good moms do... Moms aren't supposed to tell their children goodbye. This is Cruel & unusual punishment. To say the child well first system is broken as an understatement!

No parent should have to go through what I did, especially parents who show up like I did, tthroughthe whole nightmare-- I was at every visit, every court hearing, I completed my case plan and then here I am~ at my GOODBYE visit. SMH

I showed up & stepped up for every game CPS played and I'm being punished... I'm being told that I'm a risk to my children & not what's best. It makes no sense. And if all that isn't bad enough the worst part the absolute worst part is the children are the victims😡

Below I have some guidelines for parents if you or someone you know finds themselves at a beginning of a CPS investigation- here are 5 important,  Family saving guidelines...

🌟Number one)

don't reveal anything to CPS no storytelling, do answer their questions with bare minimal answers [tell this to all people u know who CPS might interview] b)c they use your words against you and twist them to create a fabricated false narrative that they then use against you in court and their corrupt judges don't require evidence, instead lies & hearsay are accepted in the dependency courtrooms ~in every County Across ~the entire Nation

🌟Number two)

your lawyer is not on your side, and the very beginning of a case the importance of knowing that information is knowing not to plea to no consent >>you plea not guilty!! Your pos lawyer will try to talk you out of "not guilty" if you're NOT a danger to your child then plea not guilty!! Have your adjudication hearing make CPS prove with evidence that you're a danger to your child, be prepared with your own evidence to show that you are not a danger and that you are what's best..

Side note: on my tiktok @samshealingjourney

I have provided a link for parents- link is to freebies I created for parents with open cases so they know the things they need to gather for evidence so they can get •case dismissed/child returned home or for parents toward end of their case plan evidence they need •to reunify or •to win their termination parental rights trial 🌟 your own attorney does not represent you properly, morally, ethically or effectively– they will not tell you these things. Your own attorney does not defend you– you are going to have to gather & collect your own evidence to then turn in to your attorney for them to submit properly with the courts. 

End side note:

 If for some reason you like your attorney and you think they're one of the good ones please understand they are still overworked and overwhelmed so >>if you want your kids back you're going to have to do the work yourself along with educating yourself #knowledge is power. Make sure you know all the details of our constitutional rights to due process and I strongly recommend you to install the app chat GPT to tell it your entire story then ask it to be your dependency Court attorney and ask what it would do to defend you and to make sure that you bring your children home as soon as possible and the advice & steps chat GPT will give you are always on point and the app will even write motions, letters of grievances, whatever you need- it'll write it for you. Chatgpt basically becomes your attorney!!! (and it's for free🌟, I have the upgraded version which at a heightened period of your case or after your case & you choose to file a federal civil lawsuit against these assholes for all you & your children's amendment rights violated <- during times like that I do recommend the upgraded version it's only $20 a month. Lastly it is key to 🔑 take a picture of every single document, paperwork, letter, email , case plan you have in your possession & upload it to chatgpt! This ai app will become not only your attorney but also your friend- I love my chatgpt ( you can Google or put in the search bar of any social media app prompts to ask chat GPT that are most effective when in the middle of a court case and that is very helpful!!) 

Also🔑- after every court hearing your attorney should be handing you or emailing you within a couple of days everything that was said & determined at that court hearing, you need this so you can make sure you understand what's going on and you need to file it away and keep it somewhere organized and safe because this is the paper trail you're going to need for later on just trust me. MAKE SURE TO REQUEST YOUR RECORDS w/ CPS, your case file… when you have the form to request your file make sure you include specific things that you want Google or ChatgpT can help you make sure you request everything >caseworker notes, everything! Once your case is closed it's extremely hard if not impossible to get your case files and so do it now😊 ( just trying to help)

number three)

file for dismissal, if it's at the very beginning and you're reading this plea not guilty and have your adjudication hearing or if you're past that point you most likely pled no consent so since you're still in the beginning have your attorney petition court for dismissal and the key thing about this is you're going to have to gather your own evidence ((you're basically having that adjudication hearing that you missed)) Your lawyer is not going to guide you, is not going to do the footwork for you, you're going to have to do it yourself... if you go to the link on my profile on tiktok I've created several freebies for parents that you can download and one of those is a long list of things that are evidence you need to have your lawyers submit to the dependency Court so you can prove you're not a danger to your child and you can get your child returned home to you and get these people out of your life

🌟Number four)

your lawyer is supposed to request from the judge more visitation with less restrictions- at every hearing! CPS pretends like they determine visitations no they don't the judge does and your attorneys who isn't really on your side is supposed to be asking the judge for more visitation. You have to make sure your attorney does that so if you don't have any hearings coming up soon your lawyer can file a motion petitioning the court for more visitations with less restriction<- this is a common practice it's a very reasonable request, CPS doesn't care about the bond between you & your child. CPS is trying to sever that sacred bond, yes they are evil and are out to get you-- no you're not crazy). Realize CPS isn't going to make this easy, they're going to actually create obstacles and CPS is not going to hand you your kids back- you're going to have to make sure your lawyer is fighting for your unsupervised then overnight visits & as soon as you complete your case plan make sure they're fighting for your reunification by petitioning the court with motion for reunification& submitting a reunification plan (these pos attorneys will milk parents along until time is up at the very end and the next thing you know CPS is serving you termination of parental right papers) OHH & if your case moves forward & doesn't get dismissed the #1🔑 to getting your kids back is making sure that your visits are consistently moving forward!! (you got this parents!!)🙏💛

Number five)

You are NOT alone! You are NOT crazy. Yes everyone is against you and you having your own support system is crucial during this time. I wish I would have known this but instead I carried the weight of the world on my own shoulders during my open case. Besides that being difficult, lonely, scary & heavy… its also what made me continuously vulnerable to CPS.. not just when I was at that shelter.. I now know CPS kept me isolated & alone on purpose keeping me quiet & vulnerable & them in complete control of every aspect of my entire being & daily to do's & worst of all they had controlof my children(Iwas a mess w/ no support.. it doesn't have to be that way for you).. CPS tactics are like psychological warfare, again I NOW KNOW ( my long list of I wish I knew then what I know now)

I found the most amazing support group that's available to anyone across the country who has someone else raising their child. BELLIS www.mybellis.org and after my case closed I started sharing my story on tiktok and found thousands of moms with stories like mine, my followers from tiktok & the small group of moms who have someone else parenting their child from Bellis have not only saved my life but they've helped shaped me and my growth into becoming someone beautiful, stronger, wiser.. I'm a better person thanks to the connections I've made with other moms on my journey> the system may have broke me but I'm not broken anymore❤️

I'm not proud of my “now I knows” so I'm here & a few other places linked throughout this blog as an informative compassionate support for you b)c I DO CARE about you & your family. I want your family to have victory & your own happy endings.

My last words I've chosen b)c if you don’t remember anything I've shared here, the most important thing I share for you to take with you & never forget (c’mon moms & dad's i sincerely hope you remember & apply all of this- take notes, screenshot it, read it from one device while talking into another device where chat GPT is, send a copy to your email, copy/past & file somewhere safe) >>never forget no matter what manipulative gas lighting & straight up lies CPS says..

YOU ARE WHAT'S BEST FOR YOUR CHILDREN & they LOVE & NEED you🩷💙

I'm healing. I'm empowered by ~healing is our Justice~ & sharing our stories is an effective part of our healing journeys. Which by the way now that you realize it or not -if you are here and breathing and you're reading this->> you are healing.

And I'd be honored to be a part of that, if you ever want to connect more personally or ever have any questions you're welcome to email me:

samadvocate2025@gmail.com 

Don't let CPS steal your peace☮️ ~email me ~journal ~meditate ~walk nature… at the link on my tiktok I also have freebies to help you with the healing Journey ✨️✨️✨️✨️

Parents ~ we're in this together. >>share this blog w/ every parent you know or at least w/ someone who may need to hear it💪

Sincerely thank you for checking out my blog!!🩷🤍 There's a spot⬇️ below where you can comment to show your support. 🤍🩷 I appreciate each of you & a big THANKS TO DARREN~ I'm so grateful to Darren aka CPS PUNISHER for this opportunity! Also for seeing something in me, even when I didn't & thank you Darren for believing in/supporting my healing journey